Post 1,091: Lying to Myself
I didn’t sleep well last night. I woke up in the middle of the night to find out my A/C had stopped working. So, I went back to bed and worried about it. There was not much I could do about it until everyone else was awake. And yet, all I could do was sit there and play through how much it sucked.
I am writing this early in the morning, so I still have not figured out what the issue is yet. And I am still anxious about it. It could be big. It could be small. It might even be a really easy fix. Even though it being an easy fix is equally as possible as me needing to spend a bunch of money to completely replace the system, I constantly choose to focus on the worst outcome.
Not even a worse outcome, the worst. Heck, I will even take it a step further and worry I have financially screwed my family. Everyone is going to hate me. I failed. I suck.
My brain is powerful with how terrible it can make me feel. I need to remember that until I find out reality, my brain is just making it all up.
~Ryan Lynch
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